Saturday, December 27, 2008

Who's on your TOP TEN LIST?

It's a meme - A SEXY MEME!
Sit down and compose your TOP TEN FANTASY LIST - of CELEBRITIES. Then go to the Internet and copy your favorite sexy pic of the celeb and post as part of your answer. Be sure to tell everyone WHY this hottie gets you hot!!! Start off with #10 and build up to your #1.

Now GO!!!

10. ALYSSA MILANO

She was such a HAWT TOMBOY on Who's The Boss in the 80's!

9. GILLIAN ANDERSON

Sexy Hot Doctor chasing down David Duchovny and paranormal phenomenon!!! Yum!

8. KATE WINSLET

I wanted to be Leonardo DiCaprio making out with her in the back seat of that car stored below deck in Titanic! Steaming up the windows....WHACK! (hand against the window) She moans out!

7. GINA GERSHON & JENNIFER TILLY

This pair has to count as one. I can't rank one over the other! If you have not seen BOUND... what rock have you been under? It's only the hottest lesbian sex scenes in mainstream cinema!!!

6. DREW BARRYMORE

She's been hot in everything since she was legal. We are about the same age, and as I found my comfort with my sexuality... there was Drew. Sexiest was in Batman, where she is in all white lacy lingerie!

5. MAGGIE GYLLENHAAL

I didn't really dig Maggie until I saw The Dark Knight a couple of weeks ago. Raised my interest enough to get her on my list. Her recent modeling for Agent Provocateur Lingerie moved her up to #5!

4. ALYSON HANNIGAN

Sexy Lesbian Witch on Buffy, the Vampire Slayer! Nymphomaniac on American Pie. I can't wait to see her new sit-com!

3. MARISKA HARGITAY

Law & Order, SVU doesn't write boyfriends into Olivia Benson's life because of her dedication to her job, supposedly. I can still fantasize that she plays for my team, right?

2. NATALIE PORTMAN

I first fell for Natalie as Queen Amidala on the Star Wars Prequels, and was dazzled by her dedicated acting in V-Vendetta

1. LUCY LIU

Hot in Ally McBeal and Shanghai Noon, Hotter in Kill Bill. THE DAMNED HOTTEST WOMAN I HAVE EVER SEEN... (WEARING A FULL BODY CATSUIT AS A CORPORATE DOMINATRIX) IN CHARLIE'S ANGELS!!!

LAWD... I need a cool drink.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

White Lies, Black Lies, and What Lies In-Between

I will freely admit that I am an accomplished artist of spinning white lies. The kind you tell the cable company for sympathy so they will work with you to keep the internet and TV on. The kind that keeps bill collectors from blowing your phone up with harassing calls. The kind that spares someone's feelings when you forget their birthday. The kind that will excuse your expected presence from a family function you just don't feel up to making. Yeah, those are the little white lies I am really good at.

Then there are black lies. The flat out malicious lies that ruin peoples' lives. The one's that cost people their jobs, wreck marriages, break up happy homes, tarnish reputations, turn children against parents. I could site examples, but why beat dead horses? Those lies you never recover from. Not really. You move on, but their scars are still ugly and painful. The kind of scars that never heal and go away. You spend your days trying not to dwell when you have been hurt by them, because if you do you become crippled, Life screeches to a halt.

But what most folks don't think about are the lies that lie in-between. These are the lies that hurt people, sometimes just as deeply, yet the person telling them will still try to justify them. In their own minds it makes perfect sense to do what they are doing. Maybe the mentality is that the end result will justify their means.

I can admit that I am guilty of utilizing a few of these Gray Lies, if you will, over the years. I'm not proud of them. At the moment one of these Gray Lies spilled forth from my lips, I had found myself in some sort of deep shit. Sometimes self created. Sometimes not. But in those moments where the absolute truth was not an option (for whatever reason), where there was sheer panic and need for immediate action, I have not always made the best decision in which direction to take. And I admit that. With that said, I don't feel that I am casting stones in a glass house so much with my feelings on the topic. I will also find a way to take responsibility for the ensuing fall out from my Gray Lies (or white lies for that matter), and I try my damnedest to mend any broken fences along the way.

I have spent several months wrapped up in someone else's Grey Lie. I can understand their discomfort with telling the truth. I can understand the fallout they feel would rain down upon them. What I wish for is that the person telling this Grey Lie to be able understand how absolutely devastating it is to me to be the topic of this lie. To be told one minute that you are their one-and-only-everything, and then completely deny you to the world the next, or at the very least minimize your existence or roll in their life... It is heartbreaking.

I came clean with my family about having this person in my life. I realized that there was no point in lying. It was a facade that could not realistically be maintained anyhow. It's difficult to keep up a lie to your family when they live 30 minutes away, call daily, and can drop by with a minute's notice. I also realized that once the honesty hit, so would the shock, but the truth would slowly wash over everyone and ebb the shock away. (I guess it's easier to maintain such a lie when your family lives 10 hours away and there is no risk of an unannounced visit maybe???)

I was completely devastated to learn that when this person's mom started asking direct questions about me, my relationship with this person, and my roll in their life (to which mom already knew the answers in her heart), mom wasn't provided a totally honest and direct answer. She was answered with avoidance, omission, and diluted truth.

It's my place to ask for forgiveness from them for my wrongs done. I don't need anyone to speak on my behalf for that. I shouldn't have anyone but me account for what I did wrong in our relationship. And I don't really see them taking it out on this person like they are convinced would happen. Just my opinion. Yet if I don't have a place in their reality, and currently exist in their minds and thoughts, I can't really have the opportunity to make a mends and someday regain their respect.

I took the initial heat with my family for my decision to bring this person back into my life. But in doing that, this person was subsequently and indirectly given an opportunity to prove their worth, prove their intentions, and regain respect. Not only with my family... but with me as well. I'd just like to have that same opportunity... because it means that much to me.





Right now I can't put to words how that makes me feel. But it certainly ain't good.


ps - Yeah.... Merry Christmas (sigh)

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

All I want for Christmas Eve....

Is a 33 year old hemodialysis patient, in respiratory distress failure!!!

MUST:
*Be overdue for dialysis.
*Have missed dialysis for a stupid reason.
*Miss dialysis because "transportation" didn't show up today.
*Miss dialysis because no one could drive him the 1/2 mile to dialysis.
*Not go to the hospital 6 hours ago when he started huffin & puffin.
*Refuse to go the the hospital with dialysis capabilities.
*Demand to go to the hospital bandaid box across the street from dialysis.
*Demand to go to the hospital bandaid box 1/2 mile down the street.
*Have a blood pressure of 250/140 and a pulse of 120.
(No, seriously!)
*Get hypoxic when the ER decreases the 15LPM on the non-rebreather.
*Get hypoxic agitation and start coming off the gurney.
*Not have any realistic peripheral IV access.
*Have scars from all the cut-downs and previous central lines.
*GET NASAL INTUBATION BY REALLY HOT ATTENDING - WHILE CONSCIOUS!!!
*Finally get a femoral central line.
*GET AN IMMEDIATE RSI BECAUSE NASAL TUBE WASN'T KICKIN IT FOR THE RT.

**Delay our return to service for an hour...
(because this ER wants his ass transferred as soon as he hit the door, and the receiving ER wants to be picky about trivial shit regarding his EMS transfer... when in all reality he is gonna code before they find a way to get him out the door and to a more adequate ER for his needs.)

Monday, December 15, 2008

A Brilliant Realization? Not really...

Today, we were discussing the legendary drag performer Mr. Charlie Brown.

Around this time Paula Deen came on Food Network, which is nearly always on our TV. If you haven't read my post on Food Network Addiction.

I suddenly realized that Mr. Charlie Brown looks an awful lot like Ms. Paula Deen. Actually, Ms. Paula Deen looks an awful lot like Mr. Charlie Brown. I figure the later to be the case, seeing as Paula Deen's Homepage FAQ's divulges that "The sweetest man named Jamie Cribbs does my hair for me."

I think I found her hair-dresser's inspiration!!!

Another Name Generator?

Ok... while prepping for my next post, I ran across this little savory waste of 2 minutes you will never get back: DRAG QUEEN NAME GENERATOR

Give it s shot and post YOUR DRAG QUEEN NAME in my comments!

Mine was Ivana Dick.
Strange.
Maybe it's temporarily out of order?

Friday, December 12, 2008

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS...

(IS EQUAL RIGHTS!!!)

Please pass this along.
Saturday Dec 13, from 1pm-5pm - there will be an Equal Rights Demonstration @ Phipps & Lenox Malls, Atlanta (Buckhead), Georgia. This will be a carry over from the Prop 8 Protest at the State Capitol a few weeks back.

Here's the link: SOUTHERN VOICE ARTICLE.
ATLANTA ACTIVISTS TO PROTEST SATURDAY
From Southern Voice: 12-12-08

The same Atlanta organizers who put on the Nov. 15 gay rights rally at the State Capitol hope hundreds turn out again Saturday for their next visibility action, “All I Want for Christmas is Equal Rights.”

The protest, designed to build on the momentum from last month’s event, is set for 1 p.m. to 5 p.m. on the sidewalks around Lenox Mall and Phipps Plaza.

“There won’t be any speakers like the last rally because it just won’t work because it’s on sidewalks,” organizer Jeff Schade told Southern Voice last week. “We are asking people to bring signs, like they did last time.

“We will have bullhorns and be leading chants, so it’s not a silent protest,” he said. “We’re stressing to keep it peaceful, keep it respectful, we’re not out to push ourselves into anything.”

The Nov. 15 rally at the State Capitol, and a vigil later the same day in Midtown, were part of a national day of protest against Proposition 8, a measure passed Nov. 4 by California voters to rescind gay marriage in the state.

“In my opinion, Prop. 8 really was a wakeup call. It really was the face of the gay rights movement of this decade,” Schade said.

“To me it was really a wakeup call to our community, as far as what we’re trying to achieve. When I look at the GLBT community we have a large community but we’re also very scattered, and so we are trying to bring the community together,” he said.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Proud to call Atlanta home?

Where have I been? Somehow I missed this news story. Apparently a 20-something with Bi-Polar Disorder recently went ape-shit on an elderly lady on the subway. It was caught on video, and of course it then went viral on YouTube.

Once she was arrested, the outcries for sympathy and understanding from the family went out to the local media. And subsequently TONS of vlogs came out in response to her actions, her arrest, her family, etc. All I can say is watch the video and form your own opinion. Be aware that this is FULL of vulgarities if you are going to view it around others.



My personal opinion is that this is a disgrace! Bi-Polar or not. It was her responsibility to take her medication. It was a conscious choice not to do so, and therefore she should be held accountable for her actions when she didn't. If you choose to drink and drive, you have to answer for it when you are arrested or when you cause an accident.

As far as the brother posting a plea on YouTube for sympathy and understanding, maybe having her family take up for her over the years gave her the comfort to feel like she can do what she wants with no consequence. Get over it. If she takes the heat for what she did, she will have to be a responsible adult and not only answer for her actions, but realize the importance of taking care of herself and her "condition".

As for how this situation went down... it is even more of a disgrace how the other passengers on this train let it go on and on and on before even asking her to chill out, then finally grabbing hold of her when her tirade was turned to them. How disgusting! She could have given that elderly lady a freakin heart attack! Bet you would have jumped up and handled it if she was in YOUR grandmother's face like that though!

What should have happened was a group of the passengers should have jumped her ass and held her down until the police arrived. Didn't y'all learn anything from flight 93 on 9/11?

And as for her due process? She had an overly generous judge who called a dead docket and forwarded the case to a pre-trial mental health intervention program. Sorry. Too late for that. She has been diagnosed. She refused to take her meds. She needs to be held accountable.