Tuesday, July 15, 2008
EWE CAN DO IT.. ( a much anticipated response)
"It's hard to have a battle of the wits with an unarmed person, as the saying goes."
I'M NOT HAVING A BATTLE WITH YOU, MY DEAR. MY WAR HAS BEEN WITH LENYA ALL ALONG. I LOST ALL RESPECT FOR YOU WHEN YOU STARTED SLUTTING AROUND AND FLIRTING WITH LENYA. I HAD NO USE FOR YOU AFTER THE NIGHT YOU INVITED LENYA OVER TO GET HER DRUNK WHILE I WAS AT WORK. PROBABLY AN ATTEMPT AT SEDUCTION, BUT THEN AGAIN I ONLY HAVE LENYA'S WORD THAT "NOTHING HAPPENED". SEE, HERE IN *LIES* THE PROBLEM (APPROPRIATE PUN). EVERYTHING HAS BEEN BASED ON LENYA'S WORD. AND THAT IS WHERE I MADE MY MISTAKE. I BELIEVED EVERYTHING SHE SAID ABOUT YOU, ABOUT THE RELATIONS BETWEEN YOU TWO, THINGS YOU SUPPOSEDLY SAID ABOUT ME AND DID MALICIOUSLY TO ME, AND HOW MUCH SHE WAS OR WAS NOT INVOLVED IN IT ALL. MAYBE THAT IS WHERE YOU ARE MAKING YOUR MISTAKE TOO. BUT ALAS, THAT WAS SUCH A BITTER PILL FOR ME TO WAKE UP AND SWALLOW ON SUNDAY. IT MAY BE FOR YOU AS WELL.
"Isn't it funny how, when someone is being manipulative, that they lose sight of the fact that most other people don't operate the way they do. Which makes them very transparent; quite the opposite of the slick, quick people they think they are. Their biggest mistake? They don't factor in honesty. See, if you're 'living out loud', being honest about who you are with others, these people are no threat. I have never figured out why they always try to grab the bull and then are surprised when they get the horns. These are the same people who will have the nerve to cry when they get caught doing wrong to try to garner sympathy. Amazing. These are the people who will attack someone- literally and figuratively- and delude themselves into believing that they are justified because of some perceived 'wrong doing'."
FUNNY.... *and* AMAZING... YOU SEEM TO HAVE CAPTURED LENYA SO WELL. IT TOOK A WHILE... BUT I FINALLY CAUGHT ON TO HER GAME. YOU BASE 90% OF YOUR PERCEPTIONS SOLELY ON WHAT LENYA HAS TOLD YOU, TRUE OR NOT.
WHO CALLED *YOU* BEGGING FOR YOUR (APATHETIC) HELP THE DAY SHE WANTED TO COMMIT SUICIDE? I CALLED. IF I WERE SO MANIPULATIVE AND UNCARING, I WOULD HAVE SAID "F-IT" AND LET IT HAPPEN. LENYA IS GOOD AT CONVINCING HERSELF THAT SHE IS SUCH A VICTIM, BUT SHE IS EVEN BETTER AT CONVINCING OTHERS!!!
BEFORE YOU ACCEPT SOMEONES WORD AS GOSPEL TRUTH... DO SOME DIGGING. I DID. AND THE TRUTH DID NOT LIE WITHIN THE THINGS LENYA SAID, OR PRETENDED TO DO. BUT IT WAS EASILY ENOUGH FOUND.
"And though I have to admit it is a constant source of amusement, question is, how long are you willing to bang your head against the same wall, getting the same results every time?"
I'M SO GLAD THAT MY HARD LESSON LEARNED WITH LENYA HAS BEEN SO AMUSING TO YOU, AND SUCH A SOURCE OF ENTERTAINMENT. JUST ANOTHER FINE EXAMPLE OF THE CALLOUSED PERSON YOU ARE FOR ENJOYING THE SUFFERING OF OTHERS. I NO LONGER BANG MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL EXPECTING DIFFERENT RESULTS TO THE SAME CONUNDRUM. LENYA PAINTS SUCH A WONDERFUL PICTURE OF ALL THE WRONG I DID HER, WHEN IN FACT I WOULD SIMPLY PUT MY FOOT DOWN AND DECLARE AN END TO WHATEVER BULL$#!+ LENYA WAS PULLING OR SPINNING. JUST BECAUSE I REFUSE TO PLAY HER GAME BY HER RULES... DOES NOT A VICTIM MAKE.
I TOOK THE INITIATIVE AND MADE THE CHANGES I NEEDED TO MAKE TO GUARANTEE "NO MAS" (THAT MEANS "NO MORE" IN SPANISH FOR THOSE LINGUISTICALLY LIMITED).
"At what point does vengeance become masochism?"
HONEY... THERE IS NO NEED FOR VENGEANCE. ONLY TO EXPOSE THE TRUTHS WITHIN ALL THE LIES. AS A FABULOUS FAG FRIEND OF MINE FREQUENTLY EXCLAIMS, "AND THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE"... (THANK YOU MY GAY BOYS - OH, AND WATCH OUT... SOMEONE IS ON THE HUNT TO HAVE THEIR NEXT TRANSGENDERED AFFAIR WITH A GAY MAN.)
"In the long run you are going to be the one to suffer for your behavior, not your 'targets', because as has already been explained (and you seem to be very slow in 'getting it'!), what you send out into the universe only boomerangs back, building velocity as it goes. I'm guessing you're having to catch a lot of boomerangs."
AGAIN... I HAVE NO TARGETS. BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING TO TARGET. NO ONE TO TARGET. AND AS FAR AS THOSE BOOMERANGS GO... I MAY HAVE CAUGHT A FEW THROWN BY LENYA, OR AS SHE TELLS IT - THROWN BY YOU. AND THAT IS OK. THERE IS A BIT OF A PRICE TO PAY FOR PLAYING THE GAME. BUT MY PARTICIPATION IN THESE INTRAMURAL SPORTS IS DONE. I HAVE ME DEGREE FROM THE SCHOOL OF HARD KNOCKS NOW.
"Well, anyway, simple truth is this: You have no power here. Slink off, pay your debts, admit your wrongs and keep on going."
AND GO I SHALL....
SO I GUESS MY QUESTION IS THIS... ARE WE DONE HERE?
ARE YOU THROUGH BASING *YOUR* VENGEANCE SOLELY ON WHAT HAS BEEN TOLD TO YOU SECOND HAND? OR DO YOU ACTUALLY HAVE THE BALLS TO MAN-UP AND STAND BEHIND YOUR ACTIONS, ADMIT YOUR PARTICIPATION, AND EVENTUALLY MAYBE EVEN DIG FOR YOUR OWN TRUTH? I DO REMEMBER SOME COMMENT A FEW WEEKS AGO THAT HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH STONES AND GLASS HOUSES. DOES THAT APPLY EQUALLY TO EVERYONE - OR JUST THOSE PERCEIVED AS THE *SOLE PROPRIETORS* OF INJUSTICES DURING THIS WHOLE TIRADE? TRULY BE YOUR OWN WOMAN, AND NOT A BLIND SHEEP IN A FLOCK FULL OF LIARS. SEEK IT. IT'S THERE.
WE'VE *ALL* PLAYED THE GAME. WE'VE *ALL* TOOK A FEW HITS. WE'VE *ALL* SUFFERED IN SOME MEANS. I'M READY TO BE DONE WITH IT ALL FOR GOOD.
BUT IF FOLKS CHOOSE TO KEEP UP WITH THE BULL$#!+, NAME CALLING, AND MUD SLINGING... I HAVE AMAZING STAMINA THAT HAS NOT BEEN EXPLORED IN YEARS, AND LOTS OF FREE TIME ON MY HANDS THESE DAYS.
OH... AND ABOUT ALL THAT FREE TIME. I LIKE TO TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO THANK YOU BOTH SO MUCH FOR YOUR HELP IN THAT ARENA. IT SEEMS TO BE JUST THE Rx FOR REST AND RELAXATION. WHAT A BLESSING IN DISGUISE!!! BUT DON'T THEY ALL USUALLY ARRIVE THAT WAY?
I THINK THAT MY TIME IS BETTER DIRECTED TO ~*MOVING ON*~!!! MAYBE SOMETHING YOU SHOULD CONSIDER AS WELL. JUST A SUGGESTION.